I know we cant simply live happy forever. Our life cover with all much emotions. There are times when we are happy, laugh out burst. Sometimes in reverse, we are feeling desperete, lonely, and all mournful things cover our lives. When those time come you feel like your spirit of life has gone and the sky has fallen and the earth ruins. But there is always a gleam of light take a peep on your saddest days. Just encourage your heart that every bad things will dissapear and time of happiness will replace your loneliness. Not to forget, everything happens in a will of God. Maybe it was just a sign of our creature Allah the almighty. We sometimes too busy with mundane life, chasing after nothing.
06012017: 00.30 Bapa's last breath. Life was so unexpected. I really have no idea that bapa will leave us this fast. We've just phone called this evening. I know that dad has been ill for the past two weeks. This situation ever happened to my dad around 3 years ago. He was in severe ill. He had been sick for months. At the time our family was ready for the worst situation. But Allah still aloft our hopes. Time healed my dad. And this time we were sure that this my dad will healing by himself.
Life is mystery. The key of all this mystery held only one the Almighty Allah SWT. My sister told me to let our father goes sincerely. He has gone forever. I would have never seen him again. Ya Allah hamba ikhlas dengan kepergian bapak. Kuatkanlah mama dan keluarga hamba dalam menghadapi cobaan ini ya Allah. Ya Allah hamba mohon terimalah bapak di sisi-Mu. Ampunilah segala dosanya ya Allah. Semoga kepergiannya khusnul khatima. Jangan Engkau berikan siksaan yg pedih kepadanya. Jauhkanlah ia dari siksa kubur, siksa api neraka. Pertemukanlah bapak hamba dengan orang2 terkasihnya. Terangilah dan lapangkanlah kuburannya ya Alllah. Aamiin yarabbal alamiin.
(In the morning the same day at the airport when I've been looking for plane ticket flight thru Ambon) The worst scenario that I've ever imagined is I would not have seen my dad for the last time. All flights has been sold out. One that remained free is a flight at 15.00 and that means I would not be there on time. Ya Allah please for the last time give me the chance to see my dad.
I am reminisching the old memories I'd been sharing with my dad. I remember very well when I was arrived in Makassar last September my dad was the very first person called me. I know he wasn't typical dad who can easily showed his affection towards his children. He can't choose nice words to us. But I know He very deeply loved us. I ask him my sincere apologize to not being a nice daughter. Dad I know Allah loves you more than we do. I know your up there set in the beautiful place. The thing we should do is not lamenting your gone. We are going to send a sincere pray, hands open request for mercy of the creator Allah almighty.
070117: In my last update which means yesterday I wrote about my worry not arrive in home on time. In the nick of time, when I was desperately cried over my losing chance meet my dad for the last time somepeople came to me. They were asking why I was burst in tears. I explained the whole situation that I have to catch this noon flight so I can meet my dad. Really I totally lost in hopes at the time, realizing that I wouldn't have got to see my dad. But miracle always come exactly when they meant to be. Few people were huddling around me. They felt so empathy towards me. One of them who deeply moved by my condition tried his best search for an empty seat in Lion air. He went to check in table and spoke to pimpinan lion. After quite some discussion I was given permission to flight with lion. I gave them my id card to process the administration. They asked me about how much I can provide to pay the ticket. I told them I had one million in me. The kind old man whose big involved in my problem even asked me if I had money with me. I told him the truth I only got twenty thousand with me. He then gave me 150 thousand. I was thankful to him and pray may his kindness will be pay off someday. Things that even more astounded me was till the last he accompanied me to the gate. I thank him and as long as walked to the plane I only pray for him.
06012017: 00.30 Bapa's last breath. Life was so unexpected. I really have no idea that bapa will leave us this fast. We've just phone called this evening. I know that dad has been ill for the past two weeks. This situation ever happened to my dad around 3 years ago. He was in severe ill. He had been sick for months. At the time our family was ready for the worst situation. But Allah still aloft our hopes. Time healed my dad. And this time we were sure that this my dad will healing by himself.
Life is mystery. The key of all this mystery held only one the Almighty Allah SWT. My sister told me to let our father goes sincerely. He has gone forever. I would have never seen him again. Ya Allah hamba ikhlas dengan kepergian bapak. Kuatkanlah mama dan keluarga hamba dalam menghadapi cobaan ini ya Allah. Ya Allah hamba mohon terimalah bapak di sisi-Mu. Ampunilah segala dosanya ya Allah. Semoga kepergiannya khusnul khatima. Jangan Engkau berikan siksaan yg pedih kepadanya. Jauhkanlah ia dari siksa kubur, siksa api neraka. Pertemukanlah bapak hamba dengan orang2 terkasihnya. Terangilah dan lapangkanlah kuburannya ya Alllah. Aamiin yarabbal alamiin.
(In the morning the same day at the airport when I've been looking for plane ticket flight thru Ambon) The worst scenario that I've ever imagined is I would not have seen my dad for the last time. All flights has been sold out. One that remained free is a flight at 15.00 and that means I would not be there on time. Ya Allah please for the last time give me the chance to see my dad.
I am reminisching the old memories I'd been sharing with my dad. I remember very well when I was arrived in Makassar last September my dad was the very first person called me. I know he wasn't typical dad who can easily showed his affection towards his children. He can't choose nice words to us. But I know He very deeply loved us. I ask him my sincere apologize to not being a nice daughter. Dad I know Allah loves you more than we do. I know your up there set in the beautiful place. The thing we should do is not lamenting your gone. We are going to send a sincere pray, hands open request for mercy of the creator Allah almighty.
070117: In my last update which means yesterday I wrote about my worry not arrive in home on time. In the nick of time, when I was desperately cried over my losing chance meet my dad for the last time somepeople came to me. They were asking why I was burst in tears. I explained the whole situation that I have to catch this noon flight so I can meet my dad. Really I totally lost in hopes at the time, realizing that I wouldn't have got to see my dad. But miracle always come exactly when they meant to be. Few people were huddling around me. They felt so empathy towards me. One of them who deeply moved by my condition tried his best search for an empty seat in Lion air. He went to check in table and spoke to pimpinan lion. After quite some discussion I was given permission to flight with lion. I gave them my id card to process the administration. They asked me about how much I can provide to pay the ticket. I told them I had one million in me. The kind old man whose big involved in my problem even asked me if I had money with me. I told him the truth I only got twenty thousand with me. He then gave me 150 thousand. I was thankful to him and pray may his kindness will be pay off someday. Things that even more astounded me was till the last he accompanied me to the gate. I thank him and as long as walked to the plane I only pray for him.
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